The Stormy World

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"Because of your voice, your smile, your everything; I can open my eyes and walk on."

jazzywatermelonz:

My brother: *looking over the B1A4 tag and sees everyone freaking out* *GASP* WHAT’S GOING ON?!?!

*5 minutes later*

Me: Ahhhhhhahaha I get it!

So the other night I had gone to bed a bit earlier than my usual Fridays and I had a couple of dreams, different ones because I kept waking up, but the last dream is the one that made a big impact on me.

It’s blurry since it’s difficult for a person to remember a dream but I know enough.


It opened to a small concert hall that I was attending with my friends and family. Apparently it was for my younger sister and she was a famous pianist that had just finished her performance. I could tell that years have passed because she looked much older. There were a group of photographers and interviewers that were surrounding her while I was off to the side watching. I turned to see a bunch of people that I used to go to High School with being loud and obnoxious, I start yelling at them to keep it down when I feel a hand on my shoulder. I turn to see a girl standing behind me and somehow we start arguing about something. It felt like I knew her for a long time and it was merely just an argument that we always get into.

A few more things happened after this but I can’t really remember.

The next thing that happened was that we were still in the concert hall but everyone had left but me and her. My sister told me to not keep them waiting at dinner and I just nodded. The turned to see her facing me, sort of leaning against a railing, we talked about something but I could tell that she was angry but at the same time kind of embarrassed. I remember her saying that she loved me and that we kissed. Hand in hand, we started walking towards the door.

I think it switched to years later because the dream’s final scene was of me walking into a bedroom with her lying there, I went over and was laying next to her. I embraced her with a smile and said “I’m happy that I met you” and she responded with a smile and a kiss.

I woke up immediately right after that, with tears rolling down my face. I did not know why I was crying; maybe from the realization that it was merely just a dream or that it was such a beautiful one. That morning, desperately trying to maintain the dream inside my head, I realized that I had forgotten something; the face of the girl that I was with. I was crushed, I remembered every single detail of her but her face. She was normal sized, the top of her head reached up to my eyes, her body was similar to Tanaka Reina of Morning Musume.

But the one thing I will never forget was that she had long, blonde hair. It was beautiful and it was what grabbed my attention at first.

It devastated me when I couldn’t remember, because it felt so real. The feeling of hating her, then loving her was too real to me.

My whole life I have always believed that Dreams are like clips of your Future. You are watching what will or might happen, which is why you sometimes feel deja vu when you experience an event that you know never happened before but you’ve seen it somewhere. That’s my belief. So maybe my Dream was showing me the girl that I’ll eventually fall in love and be with for the rest of my life, maybe not.

Arashi had recently released the song “Breathless” and I’ve really connected with the lyrics that I’ve teared up because they are true to my life. It talks of loneliness and sadness that is overcome by finding the figure (either within yourself, realizing that you are trying your best to live or someone dear to you, even if they are just a dream) that will help you out of it.

You can just read the lyrics haha, I’m not good at explaining.

But yeah, I just wanted to shared that with you all.

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why does it feel like this dude gets paid by SM for tweet trolling? idiot.

Even Ryan S. Jhun gave up on waiting patiently lol

This is just a little log entry to look back on in the future, because this is weird (to me at least…).

So it started when I saw that Star Kid is on Netflix (when I was younger and blockbuster was still around I rented this movie millions of times) and I wanted to watch it. So I get through about half of it and I fall asleep, this morning I watched G.I. Joe: Retaliation, one of the AMC First Look things was about “Men at Work” and I’m all “Whoa that’s Hyde!”. I get home and start watching Star Kid again, I get to the scene when it shows the older sister’s boyfriend and it’s friggin Hyde. I laughed it off and continued watching. Then I get kinda curious since the main character looked familiar. Turns out he’s the kid from Jurassic Park (which is the next movie I’ll go see in theaters), then I scroll down and I see that he was in G.I. Joe: Retaliation!!

What the hell? That’s some crazy stuff, it kinda looped around my whole life in one moment.